Heres a list of creative thibgs I want to do!

Revising my poetry book- Basically I reread some of my old work and decided I hated them and they can not be published or seen by anyone ever at all. It was just a lot of angsty teen girl bullshit that I did not enjoy. I choose five poems that made the cut and otherwise they're all gonna be locked away in their tower forever. This is kind of a big deal though because I was already in the works to publish my first collection. But now that secert name that will not be reaveled is gonna be me first! It was a really scary decision but a really rewarding one. I want my first book to be something I'm proud of, not something I’m super embarrassed of. It's definitely a big girl decision but one I'm happy with. I just hope i don't get in trouble lol. 

1. Lesbain Loovie Larathon- So I don’t know how caught up you are in the google docs currently but I am writing a sapphic romance. But here’s the thing: I don't consume nearly enough lesbian media. Basically I only watch female content creators and I'm pretty sure 90% of them are queer. But when it comes to books, movies, tv shows, musicals, songs, other media stuff I'm lacking. The first WLW sex scene I saw was in arcane. And that's basically all I’ve consumed.

Now I’ve been writing queer characters since I was like a 6th grader. But part of being a good writer is doing your research! And while it's also important to write from experience, it's all good to learn about others' experiences! Basically the point is I choose 11 lesbian movies and I'm gonna watch 2 a week till I finish. 

I got the idea from Nikki Cano, a fellow queer content creator on you tube. Her most recent video is all about her top 10 lesbian movies and it made me realize how little I consume queer media and I want to more. 

So here’s the list

1.  Bottoms (this is the one I’m most excited for) 

2. Love Lies Bleeding

3. But I'm a cheerleader

4. A portrait of a lady on fire 

5. D.E.B.S

6. The watermelon woman

7. Shiva baby

8. Drive away dolls

9. The incredibly real story of two girls in love 

10. Imagine me and you

11. Water lilies 

The way I’m picking them is I put them in a little cup and draw them out. So my two for next week are Shiva baby and water lilies!

Here are the rules 

1. Watch 2 every week 

2. Take notes

3. Take notes on stuff like did I enjoy it, it humor, is it accurate respastion, what I want to put into my story 

4. Draw from shark cup

5. Make a video at the end

3. Bingo board- Basically I made a giant bingo board in my room of stuff I want to accomplish this year! I put it on my wall and I’m hoping to at least get a bingo. 

4. Rank the classics- This was just a fun idea I had where I rank some classics. So like my book classics and movie classics but also like romance classics and queer classics. I also want to do a thing where (and tell me if this makes no sense) I come up with a sun moon and rising for my characters but like based off of people. It started with SpongeBob characters so like mine is

Sun: Larry the lobsters

Moon: Pearl

Rising: Plankton

But you can also do it with like songs or book or movie so my movie big three is

Sun: Brave

Moon: Particle magic

Rising: Muppets most wanted

5. Art show- I'm gonna have a mini art show at home! I'm gonna do free tarot readings and just have fun! It's gonna be so cool

1. Photoshoots- I plan to do lots of photo shoots this year

Documenting my good bingo card

 Hi, Hey, Hello! So I made a little joy filled bingo card. It's just a collection of good things I want to happen! 

Here's it right after I wrote it 

And here's what it looks like once I started crossing things off. 

I'm not sure what my plans are for this. I know three things though.

1. I won't stop until I've completed it all

2. I want to make a big version of this and make it all cute

3. I need to provide a specific for when I cross something off. 

Now let's get into what I've crossed off!

1. Getting a surprise in the package- This happened today and what inspired me to do this! My grandma gave me a photography book because my dad got a digital camera! Thanks you gram gram!

2. Having a good night's rest- ok technically this is breaking the rules because I don't have an example but multiple times this week I woke up and felt so so good! 

3. Having a good week- my first week of February was Excllent! It was so much fun and it was a great start to the month! 

4. Taking a good nap- some of you know the angelic nap I took a couple weeks ago! I fell asleep to my sister playing jazz music and woke up to a bucket of deli fries. It was truly godly. 

That's all for now love you lots. Support your local libraries and document your good days! Love you bye!

Little update

 Hi, hey, hello! I know no one really reads my blog besides my bestie (hi Andrew), but I want to say I will be uploading soon! I'm gonna do my monthly recap and im currently writting some iggy and elise stuff! 

Ok love you bye!

Exciting announcement

 Hi, hey, hello! So my loves I have an exciting announcement, I'm writting a book! Well technically three which I know it's crazy girl beahivour. You know how some people are mood readers well I'm a mood writter. I'm not gonna tell you to much about each but I can tell you the geners!

The romance- This is gonna be in a series of four maybe five and it's all au's of iggy and elise. This is the only one I don't have a name for buy even if I did I wouldn't reveal it. I'm gonna come up with nick names for all three but for now we'll call it the romance! 

The fanstay- This series I've been working on since I was 14 but just started taking it seriously. There's litterally so much I want to say about it but I can't. I'm hopefully gonna start making a outline for it soon. 

The poetry- There's not much to say other then IM SO FUCKING EXICTED FOR YOU GUYS TO READ IT! Yall are gonna love it. 

I don't have a writting schedule yet and I'm not sure how I'm gonna balance the three. It's a lot easier to manage poetry then fiction but I'm gonna figure it out. Expect writting content soon!

February week 1

 

The first week of February is practically over let's talk about the highlights 

❤️ the libary- I went to the libary multiple times this week and it was litterally so fun!! Frist I went to the down town libary and had a blast then, I went to a color club with some friends and had a great time

🧡digital camera- I've rediscovered my digital camera and been loving taking cute Pinterest photos!

💛media- currently I'm reading three books and watching one TV show! The books are shown in the last slide (if you're on insta) and the show is twin peaks! I'm erbessed with all of them!

💚the animals- there's a decent amount of wild life where I live. I constantly see bunnies and quails on my walks. But also there's been a hawk and owl around. And my new neighbors have a adorable kitty that runs around my front yard 

💙collages, vison boards, and cards- I've been in my documenting my life era! I've decided every good week/month/day/event I'm gonna make a digital and collage. And I'm gonna make home made cards for all the people I love for everything I feel desveres celebrating (or just random holidays) 

💜 my writting- I've finally decided my name for my sophomore poetry book and I'm making so much progress in my fantasy series!! Thank you apollo!! 

💗my dad called me a writter!!

Mini bookhaul

 Mini book haul!!

It's not letting my post shorts so here's a little bookstore haul! Let's start with the dvds!

I actually own all the Madagascar dvds except the first one because it was mysteriously missing when I bought it. I recently watched the third movie and enjoyed it so I had to get the first.

I've been trying to buy Corpse bride on DVD for months. I was hoping that I would get it thrifted and I did! For one dollar!

I've been trying to thrift the lord of the ring books for ages. I thrifted all the movie last year because me and my dad had watched the first two and I've been dying to watch the last one. Then I thrifted return of the king but only return of the king. So when I saw the whole set for five dollars I snatched it immediately. My dad has all the books but im not allowed near thrm so i had to get my own. I don't know when I'm actually gonna read it I'm afraid it's gonna melt my brain but also I really want to read it! I think I'm gonna listen to the aduiobook but try to follow along.

Once I saw a Sarah j mass book for two dollars I knew I needed it. I think I'm gonna read it after fourth wing to fill the whole in my heart. I want to try to read two books a month and one of them little harder. I know most people don't think actar and fourth wing as advanced books buy fantasy is hard! So now i need to get the first book.

I don't think I'm gonna like it as much as fourth wing but who knows. I honestly know nothing about it. But I didn't know anything about fourth wing besides dragons and now I'm obsessed. The last two images are books I got my sister! In total the cost was  13 dollars!! Support your local libraries my love!!

February reads (hopefully)

 This is something I wrote about the media I plan to consume this month! 

Hi, hey, hello! I don't know how much I'll be posting this week (I say that though you never really know with me lol) but I am working on a weekly vlog. I'm not sure what direction I'm gonna take with it buts gonna be very book and libary heavy.

Speaking of books these ate the books I plan to read in February. I started off the month (litterally the first day) by finishing fourth wing. I'm really nervous about the rest of the series but also very excited because I love it so much. Because of who I am as a person I did look up spoilers and they make me very scared. I know realisticly it's gonna have a happy ending but also I'm nervy! I also plan to only get halfway through this month which is fine by me because I didn't expect to finish fourth wing till the end of this month!

So I picked up carry on by rainbow rowell. Eleanor and park was my first audiobook and landline is probably my current fav book! This is what's gonna help me get through the pain of fourth wing even though I know realisticly it will cause me even more pain.

But rowell has such a unique and refreshing writting style that makes me feel like I'm talking to a friend! I feel all giddy listening to this book I feel like a little 7th grader again reading Eleanor and park. And like a little fourth grader reading Harry potter. Also rowell is fucking Hilarious and all her characters have so much depth. 

Last the sister hood of traveling pants. Again this is a sad book. It talks about grief and heartbreak and lollineess. But also friendship and girlhood and belonging. It's an incrediblely important and beatfuil story. However it does have weird age gaps so just prepare yourself for that. 

I'm also ball deep into bining twin peeks with my sister. I love you dale copper! And I'm gonna try to listening to one or two musicals this month. I'm definitely gonna finish hades town and I also want to listen to into the woods.

That's all for now my loves, wishing you a great February and sending good vibes!

January wrap part 2

 Hi, hey, hello! So I know I already did my January Wrap this is kinda my writting wrap. Basically I've started a journal project for my bestie that is just a big Google doc of everything I've written that month. Some of these are gonna be kept secert because of personal reasons OR because there own one of my writting projects. However I might share the tiniest little detial from one of them at the very end! With all that let's get into it. 

I didn't start this journal till the end of January so there's not much but here's what I'm willing to share. 

1. It's been so long (it's been a single day). I have so much to tell you! First, yesterday I took a glorious nap. I fell asleep on my sister's bed to soft jazz magic and woke to deli food and a coke. That was something drugs can never beat. I'm now making my father go get me more deli fries. 

Also, my sister got me soda rush and girl scout cookies. So truly I have the best sister in the world and I'm forever grateful. 

Second, I started writting a new book. It's very smutty, very horny and very fun.

2.   Ifeel like pussysiden is contacting me

• BBQ pizza is the ONLY good pizza and it is godly a

• I'm eating a bomb pop and it's also godly 

• I'm writing smut

I won't be providing context to everything and this one I'll only provide slight context for. Basically when I feel like I'm having very not worthy thought I write them down and I feel like this is a very good show of my state of mind. I don't know why I constantly describe food as godly but also the fact that it ends with me saying I'm writting smut and starts with me calling Poseidon "pussysiden" just makes so much sense to me. 

3. I'm not gonna share every poem I wrote this month bit I will share my favorite! 

Your clothes don't fit right

Neither do mine

They don't hug the right places and they fit too tight

Your clothes don't fit because you're skin and bone

You beg and plea for me to take you home

I saw the monster eat her up

I cried to mom

It chomped and chomped and then she's gone

It lick and plucked, tore and sallow

Now all that's left is something very hollow

You're clothes don't fit right and neither do mine

I've been eating my weight and pound cake you've been counting to nine

4. Lastly a little sneak peek into on of my projects!!

You're slower then me."

I'm..." She bit her lip. "Softer them you." That was one way to put it she was plump. She had soft thighs, a softer tummy, and a nice fat...

Not that I looked though.

"Yeah well no shit so you cant go." She sighed tying her hair up. I made sure to look at her as little as possible. 

Ok that's all for now my loves!!