Im going insane! hope that helps!

I've been going insane lately. Like crash out crazy girl feral insane. I feel like I'm buzzing an also on fire. Like a bee on fire who also cant stop thinking about everyone who's ever wronged her (and everyone she's wronged). So I started writing letters to them. This made me realize that one, i am the funniest person alive. Two, this is better then therapy. I suggest everyone do this. 

Dear, 

         Blank 

 Hi, hey, hello! I don't expect you will ever read this. Maybe in some other universe where everything magically worked out between us. We spend a magical summer together then move to California to work on our childhood tv shows. You the artist, me the director , god we’d be a power duo.

Life has been weird lately. I just got a fucking mean comment on TikTok and I'm literally gonna find where this fuck lives and beat empathy into him. I feel like a lot of men need empathy. What are your opinions on this? 

I think about you constantly. Lately I’ve been thinking of our life together. I was driving around with my mom and sister and we passed on the (insert high school name) . And I thought “God we’d be seniors we are going home together. We’d be getting polar pops and doing homework then driving back to school for football practice.” And it made me feel awful. 

And then I thought “we’d be getting ready for college.” And there's no way I’d be smart enough to get into ASU and I'd be so sad to separate from you. But we’d still be together, we'd still be us. And then I got sad. But not like a depressed god I want to be buried 6 ft below sad. More like a nostalgic sad. Like a “what could have been” sad. It was kind of awful but also great. Kind of like what it must have been like to date me. 

I'm not gonna bore you with every sad bad thing that's happened to me since you did the mental equivalent of dumping me on the side of the road. Just know a lot has happened and I will drop random lore like a dad telling you he used to illegally bred snakes and sell them on craigslist. 

GOD DAMN IT I GOT ANOTHER FIUCK ASS COMMENT. I'm getting a bat and a jar full of basic morals and I'm shoving it down their throats. 

P.S.

To those fuck ass men on TikTok. I'm sending the demon from hereditary after you.